The Smocktober Slumps

So right now is prolly not a good time to make an update to the blogger- it wont be a very pleasant one for the few people that might read this, but it's on my mind. Arite... so I'm really enjoying Edgewood. Nice people, not an overwhelming campus, intimate classes, beautiful surroundings, awesome city, always something to do... you get the idea. Granted, not everybody loves a small college, but it fits me well I think. And I've made some really close friends here. And now I find out four of them are planning on tranferring. WHY you ask? Ya got me. No idea. And it's frustrating too, because okay- I wanna spend as much time as possible with them now, but whenever we have set plans, it's always like... "Oh I have a headache..." or "I got homework to do..." But c'mon! It's COLLEGE. A college kid is SUPPOSED to stay up late, and party on the weekends, and do stuff that wasn't so "by-the-book" like in high school. I thought I was getting the balance right this year: getting homework done, socializing with friends, joining clubs and intramural sports, partying. Maybe I'm just used to always being busy and pleasing everyone- maybe my friends aren't that way. Whatever... they're leaving soon anyways, huh? Mean thing to say- but I'm so frustrated right now. And then I hung out with a few friends from high school this past weekend, and both were saying how they made barely any friends and just miss the old gang from high school. I do too... but, I made new ones. I've moved on. But now, more and more since that conversation, I've been missing my old friends more- maybe since I realized I'll be losing my new friends soon too. Grrrr- whatever. I'll just keep pushing on through: doing the homework, joining the clubs, and going out... Everything happens for a reason. Something good will happen eventually. I hope.